Q&A With Myself...
Today is an anniversary of sorts…
Today marks my 2nd anniversary at my current place of employment. Over the last 2 years, I’ve had
some a lot of spare time to reflect upon the career path that I’ve
chosen and what wrong turns have lead me to the cube where I sit today.
I’m not happy with some of the choices I’ve made, but I’m not going to dwell on those – life’s too short. Each wrong turn has led me to something different, some new experience. I’ve met some great people, others that aren’t so great and those who should be forgotten, but sadly are etched upon my soul.
I’ve learned some things along the way and have laughed at myself and others while doing whatever it is that I do. I question whether I should have become a sell out and an ass kisser, but realize that I just don’t have what it takes. I like being able to hold my head high and know that I’ve gotten to where I am in life by being honest – with myself and others.
Here is an excerpt of a conversation I had with myself this morning …
So, today is your anniversary. How do you feel about that?
Well, it sort of sucks. I thought I’d be at a different place in my career by now. At least the sun is shining.
Is it the worst place you’ve worked?
Certainly not. You know the shit we’ve put up with.
Is it the best place you’ve worked?
Certainly not, but it could be if corporate management just tried a little harder. Geesh!
Do you see yourself being there in another 2 years?
Most likely, I would say yes. However, I hope not. I can’t imagine be able to withstand the mind-numbing boredom I face on a daily basis for another 2 years.
Where would you like to see yourself in 2 years?
The hallucinogenic side of me says - “living an independently wealthy lifestyle on a Caribbean island”. The realistic side of me says - “bitching and blogging about the fact that I’ve been here 4 years and have nothing to show for it”. I’m really rooting for a lottery win…
What do you like most about this place?
Hmmm, the ping pong table is pretty fun and the beer keg in the lunchroom puts a smile on my face.
What do you dislike most about this place?
Being @$%^& bored out of my mind 99.8% of the time. I also dislike the cube dweller that occupies the cube beside me. She’s a lazy, dumb ass.
If you are that unhappy, why don’t you quit?
I will in good time. Apparently, good things come to those who wait… and wait… and wait…
Have you thought about a career change?
Yes – every friggin day. I’m working on a few creative ideas right now and only time will tell where they lead. I’ll keep you posted on how they work out.
Is your boss planning anything special for your anniversary?
God I hope not. There is nothing more awkward than sitting through lunch, making idle chit chat with someone that doesn’t give a rat’s ass about you (or you about them). If I could hope for something though - I would hope for a nice severance package.
So what’s for lunch?
I’m thinking a meatball sub would make us feel better…
Really folks, it’s not like I have a horrible job. It’s just not a GREAT job – those just seem to elude me…