Journey & Adventure

I don’t know about any of you with children, but when my son was little and was having a melt-down, being disrespectful or just plain out of control, we would put him in a “time-out”.   The time-out was typically done away from others, in a quiet spot, with no outside stimulation.   For us, the bottom step on our staircase worked wonders since there was nothing around, and nothing to look at except a wall.   The time-out period usually only lasted 5-10 minutes, but in extreme cases it could last longer. Today, I wish someone would put me in a time-out.   I’d happily find a secluded staircase somewhere in the building where I could refocus my energy and have a moment to myself, to readjust my attitude. I woke up from a good sleep and was ready for the day.   AND THEN…I got to work.   Duhn, duhn, duhn, dunnnnnn!    I wish I could say the rest of the day will get better, but alas – it won’t.   I have a “team” lunch meeti...

I say this to myself every…single…morning.  There are days when it works beautifully and then there are days, like yesterday and today when things are not working out as planned.  *sigh* The days start off on the positive side but then work happens, people happen, reality happens and shit happens.   I’ve always been fairly proud of my ability to shed the toxic people from my life, but today, I may be one of them.  I’m down right cranky.  Shame on me.    So, with that said, I’m self-imposing solitude by shutting my office door, not answering the phone, keeping off social media and generally not making eye contact with anyone.  I’m choosing to be happy and I’m damn well gonna like it.

I’m a decisive person. If you present a situation, I will present you with a solution. I won’t guarantee it will be the right solution, but it’s a solution just the same. If you ask an opinion, I’ll give it to you. It might not be what you want to hear and if it’s not, oh well - you shouldn’t have asked me in the first place. Ask me a question. I’ll give you an answer. Why the hell can’t people give me the same courtesy? There are numerous individuals in my life that cannot come to a decision on their own and it’s pushing me to the brink. I simply hate wishy-washy responses like… “I don’t care. What do you want to do?” or “It doesn’t matter. Whatever you want will be fine with me.” I could make all the decisions and never give these individuals any opportunity to make a decision, but that would be rude and uncaring. Instead, I say “Grow a spine and decide already. The earth will not stop rotating if you make the wrong decision. Trust me….I’ve made a few wrong...

Does anyone else get tired of giving?   Giving their time, their knowledge, their support, and even to a certain extent, their friendship or their love?   Normally I don’t mind giving, but lately - I’m tired of it.   I’m tired of being the problem solver, the peacekeeper, the caregiver.    I’m tired of being pulled in a million directions and in general, I’m just tired.       I just want to be left the hell alone, so that I can recharge myself.   I don’t mean to sound selfish or bitter, but I don’t really care.   I’m also tired of being politically correct.     Now, that the bitterness is out of the way – I’m excited about an award I received last week from R. Jacob Post .   Stay tuned for details….they will be forthcoming. 

I’m feeling out of sorts today.  I’m not quite to the point of cranky (yet), but I’m not feeling overjoyed to be at work.   I know that it being Monday is the probable excuse; however I’m not 100% convinced that the only issue. I’m starting to have a bit of anxiety that it’s now August and the mornings aren’t quiet as bright as they were a couple of weeks ago.  It’s also starting to get dark sooner in the evening, my perennial garden has been in full bloom and things are starting to die off.  My tomatoes are ready to be picked.  I’m sad.  Why?  Well it means that fall is just around the corner.  Don’t get me wrong, I love the autumn season.  I just hate what comes after it.  Winter…she’s just a mean, hurtful bitch. It's official - NOW, I'm cranky... thanks Mother Nature....