Journey & Adventure

My brain is a tangled mess these days.   Honestly, I don’t know whether I’m coming or going.     Somehow however, I manage to stay organized amongst all the chaos – mostly thanks to J.     It’s been almost 2 years since J left his job and since then, he’s become the “man” of the household or as I affectionately call him my “domestic engineer”.     In an effort to grow our businesses, have more time on weekends, get our life under control and ultimately get ready for our eventual relocation, we made the decision that J would stay home and work on unfinished projects, household chores, business growth, etc.   Let me say this – it was the best decision of our lives (at least in my opinion).     With my growing responsibilities at work and the hectic pace of life in general, I don’t know how I would have survived and maintained my sanity.   J looks after everything, except finalizing the meals.   He takes care of dishes, laundry, toilet scrubbing, grocery shopping, yard work, etc., etc.

I say this to myself every…single…morning.  There are days when it works beautifully and then there are days, like yesterday and today when things are not working out as planned.  *sigh* The days start off on the positive side but then work happens, people happen, reality happens and shit happens.   I’ve always been fairly proud of my ability to shed the toxic people from my life, but today, I may be one of them.  I’m down right cranky.  Shame on me.    So, with that said, I’m self-imposing solitude by shutting my office door, not answering the phone, keeping off social media and generally not making eye contact with anyone.  I’m choosing to be happy and I’m damn well gonna like it.